Centuries-old spiritual ceremonies helped unlock Tom’s buried past and propelled him to a healthier, more centered life.
"The subterranean anger was not out there, but I was angry. And I wish for my kids' sake that that hadn't been so."
"A shimmering, glistening new heart in a 60 year old man. What am I to do with so much light?"
"I haven't had an ounce of shame."
"The memories that came to me about 2 years ago did so when I was taking part in an ayahuasca ceremony."
"My darkness was always around. I was never the person that led the charge when it came to buoyant energy."
The signs were always there. Tom’s life looked fairly normal. He married young, had three kids, fell into a career in construction, and then management. With a natural talent for almost everything he tried, he began interpreting the world through photography. But something was wrong. He felt haunted. The world seemed a mysterious and confusing place. Everything was heavy. Anger simmered just below the surface.
Driving through the New Mexico desert, his relationship of 17 years unraveling, Tom came apart.
He sought answers in spiritual ceremonies involving ayahuasca, a traditional Amazonian plant-based medicine. An inner door opened and revealed the terrible truth behind his lifelong fear of an old barn beside his childhood home: Tom, over fifty years later, remembered the horror of being abused in this barn. After five decades of hiding, came a commitment to face, feel, and speak the truth. Today, Tom lives in a way he could not even have previously contemplated. Following his inner compass, he feels more whole, more healthy, more centered than ever before. He is embarking on a journey, stepping into the abyss.